Everchanging times

I think I'm going through a period in my life which is very transforming. I've been pretty negative lately and I am very aware of it, but of some reason it's like I can't stop it. I think this is good though, because this negativity has forced me to work even more on my self esteem and accepting everything that is me (the positive as well as the negative). Interesting indeed and I think I'm doing very good. It's getting better and better each day.

I certainly do believe that trying to push away all the aspects of yourself that you don't want only makes them stick to you even harder. "You don't fight darkness with darkness, but you can turn on the lights".

I'm doing this for me, of course, but I also do it for the people around me because I know how I've hurt some of them through my toughts, words and actions. I always want to improve, and loving everything about me (in a healthy way, not an egoistic one) gives me the motivation to change for the better.

Take care all!

-V

Countdown

Wow, I haven't posted in a while. But isn't that just an amazing feeling? When time just stops? I'd like time to stop right now. It's graduation soon. On friday to be precise, and I really do have mixed feelings about it. Graduating from school - awesome! Parting from a wonderful class with amazing people - tragedy! I'll probably cry like a baby... :'(

Last friday I went to "prom" (I say "prom" because I'm not sure that The Prom is the equivalent to what the Swedish prom is). It was so much fun and everybody was incredibly beautiful in their outfits.

My class! (I stole this image from a friend, hehe)

Me and my youngest sister

There were lot of speeches both from students and teachers, but my favourite one was when a guy in my class went up on stage and told everybody that there was this certain person in the room whom he had feelings for, but instead of reading a "silly poem" he wanted to sing. So the tunes of Breaking Free (High School Musical) began playing and he started to sing along to Troy's part. At Gabriella's part another guy in my class stood up and began singing along. It all ended up in a make-out scene on stage with the two of them! We all cried in laughter! Wow! It was amazing.

Yesterday mom and Stefan had their 1st anniversary, and so my sisters and I had planned a dinner in the forest for just the two of them. It was en exciting day since we had to be very discrete. We took the car and went to where they were supposed to be to get everything done while they were getting ready. Then I drove back home and kidnapped them.
Their expressions when they got rid of their blindfolds and saw what we had done told us we had succeeded.

These two images are pretty bad since I had
to use my stoneage phone camera, hehe

-V

UPDATE!!

So I'm finally updating. After..... a few months? Yeah.

Well... the reason is that I haven't had much to write about. I think...

But actually I have! xD I've been to Thailand together with my family. It was an amazing trip full of happenings and emotions. It felt like being in a movie. Excitement, adventure, love, romance, joy, sadness, frustration, you name it. Amazing! I don't think I will ever experience something like that again.

We stayed at an incredibly nice hotel on Koh Samui called The Passage. The staff was very kind to us and really looked after us.

This is the beach at the hotel

Hm... what else?

I've been at a workshop in setting goals and how you reach them. It was very interesting! And I finally know what I want to work with after I graduate. Feel so relieved~

Otherwise nothing else is going on at the moment. In school at the moment, have nothing at all to do, so I'm just being bored. Funfun, yeah.

Ok, that's all for now.

Over and out!

-Vicki

Last day

"Why do all good things come to an end?" That is the question... But, if they would never come to an end, and you had fun all the time you wouldn't appreciate it as much. I believe in balance.

It was a good day though, and I gave them my secret. I'd bought tons of tea, and a cake (that was delicious!) It was a symbolic present. If someone asks me "What did you have for lunch during these days Vicki?" I'd say "Tea".
"A'right, and for breakfast?"
"Tea."
"Dinner?"
"Tea."
So I basically went to England and drank tea, haha! Well... that's what they're known for (english people so to speak).


Anyway, I hope they were happy. They looked very happy so I'm satisfied. It was a sad moment to walk down the stairs from their office, but I've been offered to come back, and oh yes I will. In time, in time.

Not doing much at the moment. Waiting for time to pass by so I can go to bed and wake up and go to Gatwick Airport. That's it.

I have had the best 18 days of vocational training and experience in my life, and I am so grateful that I got to be here. Once again I came to the conclusion that if you want something --> Go get it! That's exactly what I did!
Just decide what you want to do and go for it. No matter what! I promise you that it will be the best thing you've ever done! Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Just follow your heart. Nobody else's.

Anyway, I am very grateful! And I'm also looking forward to upcoming events and adventures. Life has just begun

-Vicki

Countdown on a pretty lazy day

I was pretty lazy today I must admit... Didn't mean to though, but I just kept throwing gazes at the watch. Well, the reason was that I really wanted it to be 6 pm to I could do what I was I had planned to do this evening (which I can't tell you just yet).

Today I warped Jakes face, and also got "facewarped" myself. It was hilarious! There is a mask for a female and a male face that gives you the measures of a "perfect face". If you warp someones face according to that mask... it won't be a "perfect face". (Not if I'm doing it at least) It will be a "Oh God, what have I done-face". It was fun though.
More than that I didnt do much... Hm... Felt like a "bad student". But I guess it's alright to have some of those days as well :) Tomorrow is going to be fun though! Part from the fact that it's my last day.

Tomorrow I'm going to pack the rest of my stuff and go to bed early I guess... Leaving at 9 am on wednesday.
Hm... what else... guess nothing else...

See you tomorrow! Then I'll tell you all about the day :)

-Vicki

Sightseeing

My weekend was good! Really. I changed my plans from sitting around at home doing nothing to "Sunday Sightseeing". A good option if you ask me.
I started my whole trip by going to the Tower of London. Cool place, I like the old buildings of London actually. That's what's so interesting with going to London. You can really tell that it's got so much history! I like that.


Had a sandwich and watched the excited tourists running around with cameras, pointing, talking, asking, laughing. I enjoyed it. The only "less good" was the cold. My hands were freezing and my thin clothes didn't do much to keep my whole body warm either... But! It became slightly warmer as I began to walk around. Crossed the Tower Bridge and realized I had to go back since there was no sign of a subway station closeby. Didn't mind though. Watching tourists are tons of fun! Being one of them - fun too.


The next stop was at Buckingham Palace. THAT, my friends, is like going to the zoo, I tell you. The guards in front of the big building doesn't do much more than just stand there. Completely blank in the faces. Imagine tons of people (at the zoo) watching the most interesting animal who doesn't do much more than sleep. It's actually not fun, but everybody loves it. BUT! When the animal suddenly starts moving, everybody takes out their cameras and gathers so tight outside the fence just to get a picture of this sporadic action! Capture the moment! (Yes, I was one of them I admit) but it's crazy, isn't it? I bet that guard knows how the animals feel...

Anyway! It was a nice visit. I went through Green Park, watching squirrels running around, curious about the visitors in the park. In the end of the park I saw a man. He was leaning forward with some bread in his hand. A squirrell carefully moved closer to him, leaned its forepaws against the mans leg (just above his foot) and quickly grabbed the piece of bread before it hurried back to where it came from. It was just amazing to watch. I didn't get a picture of it because I was standing too far away, but close enough to see the whole event. At such moments I can't do anything but smile. Really. Because I think it is very beautiful. Human and nature together. That is something that has always fascinated me.

I had a muffin at Starbucks before I went back home. Satisfied by the day.

Today's monday, and I'm back in business! Tonight I'll... go on a mission ;) Can't tell you until tomorrow of security reasons, hehe.
So! Have a great day, 'cause I know I will!

See you!

-Vicki

Last weekend

Portobello Road

So this is my last weekend in London...
Yesterday was great! Nick was very patient with me when I stuggled with my new image, and helped me out when I needed. It ended up quite good.
Lee showed me how to retouch her boobs, and just as I sat there with a pair of boobs in my face, Nick passed me and said "What the fuck are you doing to her nipples?". I laughed! Thought it was hilarious. (Btw, I didn't do anything...)
I love the atmosphere over there, really. Fortunately I have two days left, and I will enjoy them to the fullest.

Today I went to Portobello Road and had a look around. Didn't buy anything though, but I entered a really cool store. Think it's called Saints. Google it. "Saints, Portobello Road". The windows were covered with tons of very old sewing machines, and the clothes they sold were amazing!

Saw these two musicians on Portob. R.
They were really good and people had to stop just to watch and listen to the happy songs.
Some of them sang along. It was great!

I had lunch at Pret A Manger beside Notting Hill Gate subway station and spoke to a man from Egypt. He was an ex-pilot he told me, and he'd seen so much of the world, lived in so many different countries. It was very interesting to listen to him! But since his sight was pretty bad they'd taken his "pilot licence" from him, so now he wanted to focus on art. I wish him the best of luck!

Went to Piccadilly Circus as well, where I bought more new clothes and after that I went home, extremely tired. I'm thinking about lying down for a short while.
I don't think tomorrow will be that interesting. Need to start packing since I got other plans for upcoming evenings. It's not much to do though, just... get everything together and pray that my luggage wont get too heavy.

Hm... yeah. It's been a fantastic period though. This whole trip. A real journey.
I've loved every second of it.

-Vicki