Dizzy

Waiting for dad to come and pick me up. I miss him so much ._. I haven't seen him for such a long time so the rest of the weekend at his place is something I need I guess.
Malin will come tonight as well, so we will have a good time together. Me, her, my sister and a friend of hers.

Despite a few incidents I feel rather releaved at the moment. Maybe it's because of the beautiful D'espairs Ray song playing (Squall) hehe.
Music is the best thing in the world, isn't it? Especially those days when your mood is not on top. (Btw, this topic seems familiar *lol*)
And I'm in the mood where I tend to switch subjects to write about xD

Aoi, I miss you ._.

MYSPACE

Helping TM with MySpace

Ryan Farish

20 minutes before class ends. I'm just having a good time like everybody else in here.

I decided to look for more information about Ryan Farish and I ended up on his official website, and what incredible music he plays!

I saw some live videos on it, and the best thing is that he does have an orchestra on stage and not just random technology. It is real. ^^

Have a look yourself.

It's taken from his website.

Listen and enjoy =)

-V

冬休み

On Monday it's over. I feel slight panic because of it. I am not in the mood to go back to school at all to be honest. But anyway!
This holiday has been very relaxing. I have met a few friends, spent time with family and relatives during Christmas and New Year, been working on the Ultimate Metal-project a bit (which was so much fun) and... Hm... Some more =)
I started my new life the 1st of Jan. and I am incredibly motivated to reach my goals!
I also got a lovely present from....


... my secret lover Takumi Saito! 8D
No, but from my dear friend Aoi. Thank you so much!


Socks, a letter and A CHOCOLATE-SANTA!! I'm saving that one for a special moment, hehe~
本当にありがとう！

Wow, I hope everybody had a great 2009, and I also hope that you all with have an even better year this year. I know I will! ;]

OK, just a quick update.
Time to enjoy the last weekend of the holiday.

Take care all!

-V

Dance, dance, dance!

I really wanna start dancing again. And I meant it. From the bottom of my heart!
Everytime I see people dance I get all bouncy and "hyper". But most of all happy. I'm not a big fan of ballet, but I guess I will have to practice that too to get somewhere and that is what I want. I wanna be able to dance 5 days a week all day long, and with a teacher who tells me EXACTLY what to do, and how to do it. Someone who tells me what is good and what I should be practicing more. I want it to look perfect! Really~
I took a "Dance Personality Quiz" and I got this:

According to the answers you provided, your dance personality is hip-hop!

Your personality is as unique as your dancing. You are outgoing and expressive, yet you never lose your cool. You dance not to show off, but to stand out. You eagerly accept challenges, whether on the dance floor or off. Keep rockin'!

Not bad at all, eh ;]
Hiphop is what I want to focus on, but I also like locking very much! I like the small moves that seem to make the whole choreography. It's amazing.
Anyway! I have set some goals for the next year, and I know that I, with the right motivation, reach them. And that's what I'm fighting for right now.

Ganbarimashou ne!

-V

Thoughts

Do you ever feel like there is something "bigger" for you waiting out there? You don't know what, but you are absolutely sure about it.
Do you ever long for things you can't describe?
Do you ever feel that you just can't show your real self, because people would have a hard time understanding you, and if you showed them who you really are they would probably think of you as weird or not take you seriously?
I do. Sometimes. Like today, this morning. I felt at ease and in harmony when we were ice skating of some reason, and of what I don't care. It was just such a good feeling and I've been longing for it.
I don't know why I write this, but it doesn't matter either. I just want to write and I usually don't read what I've written twice. Especially not things like these.
Writing is just a tool to help me clear my mind. Once the thoughts are put into words they will automatically leave my head. Which is a good thing of course.

God, there are so many things I wanna tell, so many things I want people to understand and respect. It is harder than it seems.
One thing I know too is that some people are not capable or emotionally/mentally ready to hear everything either. To open up and look with different eyes on things.
I want that day to come though.
Until then we'll see what happens.

-V

Christmas is coming to town

It won't be long until we're there again. Food, family, textmessages, friends and all of that.
I really like Christmas because of that, and the feelings it brings. The time before christmas is the nicest though. You wait, you prepare, you get all excited (at least I do).
I got a nice gift from Hana a few days ago, and I was so happy when I opened it. Thank you so much dear <3

I have some cards I need to send, so I guess that will be todays mission. Also I'm gonna meet a friend, maybe grab a coffee or something. Wouldn't be so bad.
AND I need to find a chocolate-santa. I'm determinded! I'm going to have it! Last christmas I looked for it everywhere but couldn't find one. I remember I went nuts because of it in an ironic way xD
There are also some e-mails that need to be replied. But... 冬休みだから、時間がある。 ^^

Yepp...
Take care everyone!

-V