Dance, dance, dance!

I really wanna start dancing again. And I meant it. From the bottom of my heart!
Everytime I see people dance I get all bouncy and "hyper". But most of all happy. I'm not a big fan of ballet, but I guess I will have to practice that too to get somewhere and that is what I want. I wanna be able to dance 5 days a week all day long, and with a teacher who tells me EXACTLY what to do, and how to do it. Someone who tells me what is good and what I should be practicing more. I want it to look perfect! Really~
I took a "Dance Personality Quiz" and I got this:

According to the answers you provided, your dance personality is hip-hop!

Your personality is as unique as your dancing. You are outgoing and expressive, yet you never lose your cool. You dance not to show off, but to stand out. You eagerly accept challenges, whether on the dance floor or off. Keep rockin'!

Not bad at all, eh ;]
Hiphop is what I want to focus on, but I also like locking very much! I like the small moves that seem to make the whole choreography. It's amazing.
Anyway! I have set some goals for the next year, and I know that I, with the right motivation, reach them. And that's what I'm fighting for right now.

Ganbarimashou ne!

-V

Thoughts

Do you ever feel like there is something "bigger" for you waiting out there? You don't know what, but you are absolutely sure about it.
Do you ever long for things you can't describe?
Do you ever feel that you just can't show your real self, because people would have a hard time understanding you, and if you showed them who you really are they would probably think of you as weird or not take you seriously?
I do. Sometimes. Like today, this morning. I felt at ease and in harmony when we were ice skating of some reason, and of what I don't care. It was just such a good feeling and I've been longing for it.
I don't know why I write this, but it doesn't matter either. I just want to write and I usually don't read what I've written twice. Especially not things like these.
Writing is just a tool to help me clear my mind. Once the thoughts are put into words they will automatically leave my head. Which is a good thing of course.

God, there are so many things I wanna tell, so many things I want people to understand and respect. It is harder than it seems.
One thing I know too is that some people are not capable or emotionally/mentally ready to hear everything either. To open up and look with different eyes on things.
I want that day to come though.
Until then we'll see what happens.

-V

Christmas is coming to town

It won't be long until we're there again. Food, family, textmessages, friends and all of that.
I really like Christmas because of that, and the feelings it brings. The time before christmas is the nicest though. You wait, you prepare, you get all excited (at least I do).
I got a nice gift from Hana a few days ago, and I was so happy when I opened it. Thank you so much dear <3

I have some cards I need to send, so I guess that will be todays mission. Also I'm gonna meet a friend, maybe grab a coffee or something. Wouldn't be so bad.
AND I need to find a chocolate-santa. I'm determinded! I'm going to have it! Last christmas I looked for it everywhere but couldn't find one. I remember I went nuts because of it in an ironic way xD
There are also some e-mails that need to be replied. But... 冬休みだから、時間がある。 ^^

Yepp...
Take care everyone!

-V

"This is my December"

1st of december. Can you imagine? It is sad and great at the same time.
I like december though, but so far snow is not covering the environment and hope there will be snow for christmas.
It's rather early in the morning and I am home from school today too (like yesterday). And I think I've found the balance again because I feel extremely good.
Yesterdays grey clouds are gone, completely gone.
Sun is about to rise.

I have no idea what todays adventure will be, but I'm going back to my apartment later today though. That's all I know so far. But to take things as they come sounds good. Yeah...

Sundayrain, eggs and school

Today everything is just like a typical sunday. Rain and study. And of course, I'm a bit bored.
This afternoon I will go back to Sunne and I am really looking forward to see all my friends in school tomorrow. 4 weeks without them! Can you even imagine? Hehe
Wow, I can't believe how I survived summer holiday.
Hm yeah, and I will probably be working my ass off this week since we this essay in natural science due friday.
Last night I had a hard time sleeping. Depression, fury, thoughts and everything. But never mind, I try not to think about it. I have more good days than bad days I think.
Gosh I'm babbling, forget about it.

Well... Right now I feel good. Got to go back to my books and computer.

Take care all! :D

-V

Looong time no see

I have had three, no, four weeks off from school and it has been far more than great.
On monday I will be back though, but I don't mind. I start missing my friends.
Yesterday I went to another "meeting" in Karlstad which was soooo incredibly inspiring. I felt so happy on my way back home, and for the rest of the day. I know I needed what I got back there.

I started working out a lot more recently too, I don't know what has gotten into me but suddenly I spent two hours sweating during tuesday evening. I really want to keep doing that so I will work on it. ;)

And it is already in the middle/end of November. I want time to just stop for a while.
Yeah... we'll see what happens.
Otherwise I'm doing good, caught a pathetic cold and is very sleepy at the moment. Time to go to bed.

Everyone take care!

-V

Surprises for the evening

Yes, it is weekend (again) and I'm currently at my dad's place.
It has been a rather boring Saturday to be honest. And this morning I went out for a run (haha, funny sounding) but my legs started to hurt after half the way so I had to walk home with 20 cm long steps. As I got home I had to lay down on the floor and I almost started screaming. I took a painkiller though and it helped. It was as if someone was hitting them with a hammer over and over. Guh >.<
I should be more careful... And I did work out yesterday so maybe it's because of that too.

Tonight my sister and I are going to take dad and his wife out for dinner. Or.. we will pay for them to have a romantic dinner for two at the chinese restuant. They don't know anything yet, but I hope they will like it :]

Anyway.
An OK week has passed too and the first snow fell two days ago. I was so excited, but then rain washed it away. Of course... I hope it's coming back soon though.
Wow, I start to fall back down into my fall/winter depression. I try to stay on top though but it is not easy all the time. So much around me at the moment, and I don't know what to do.
I'm upset about my teacher in natural science for giving us this ridiculus assignment when we're having our weeks of internship. But being angry, annoyed and upset isn't going to help me. It is just a waste of time and it doesn't matter how much I complain it will still be there until I do something about it. BUT STILL!!
Guh... All afternoon I have been complaining about it and probably attracted all the negative energy that even exists.
Hm...

Claustrophobia in my own company

Hope you guys are doing better!

-V